Rus and Lhen

Last August 2016, my ex-colleague asked me a favor if I can paint him and her wife. He sent me their photos and I said yes to him but I said that I had a lot on queue so it will take time for me to start on it and he said it's okay. He said it's okay for him to be last on the queue so I said okay. A lot of things happened after our conversation. I finished some of my commissions, I got busy at work until I got lazy to even start on their portrait until I totally forgot that we even talked. I am sorry. Really.

Then 2016 passed, 2017, 2018, 2019 goes and I am still lazy to even start on it. Now it's 2020, I bought an iPad Pro and downloaded Procreate. I said to myself that maybe it's time to start on their portrait since I am familiarizing myself to the app and voila it's finally done after so many years. I know it's very long. I actually thought he also forgot that he even asked me but when I send it to him, he was really happy and thankful. His wife even made it as her display picture in Facebook. I was really delighted when I saw that.
What I'm trying to say is that sometimes we all experienced being in the darkest days as an artist. To the point that we will be very lazy and very uninspired to even touch and hold our iPad, laptop or art materials. What we really need to do when those times come is find something that inspires us and start doing. What happens to me is that I became very uninspired and I felt that my works aren't good enough. Not noticing that other people are inspired by my arts and all those times, I am the only one who actually think that my works aren't good enough for me and myself alone. I felt that way because I thought that people aren't liking my posts and it's not gathering that much attention but I realized that the number of likes and follow is not so important if you really love what you are doing. I know sometimes we will be drowned by the amount of likes, follow and attention we get from social media. In some way, we'll think that this is the measurement of being good enough but actually it's only the reward of our passion. If we really wanted to be good at something and we love what we do, we will not focus on the likes and follow but instead we will focus on how to better ourselves and how happy we felt doing the things that we love to do, which is our passion; no matter what it is.